The Meaning

To love is to share life together
to build special plans just for two
to work side by side
and then smile with pride
as one by one, dreams all come true.

To love is to help and encourage
with smiles and sincere words of praise
to take time to share
to listen and care
in tender, affectionate ways.

To love is to have someone special
one who you can always depend
to be there through the years
sharing laughter and tears
as a partner, a lover, a friend.

To love is to make special memories
of moments you love to recall
of all the good things
that sharing life brings
love is the greatest of all.

I've learned the full meaning
of sharing and caring
and having my dreams all come true;
I've learned the full meaning
of being in love
by being and loving with you.

I spoke with my son on Sunday.  He and his girlfriend are getting married in November and expecting a baby in March.  They went to the doctor on Friday for a checkup and found out that she is in the process of losing the baby.  She started on the depo shot and two days later got pregnant.  The birth control is causing her to body to abort .   I feel so badly for them.  It is a terrible loss for anyone to suffer.  I was surprised and shocked when I found out I was going to be a Grandma.  Me?!  I'm too young to be a Grandma!  And yet, when I found out she was losing the baby I was very saddened.  I had started looking forward to becoming that Grandma I never imagined being and didn't even realize it.   

In May my 19 year old son moved to Tennessee to "try and make it on his own".  He got a job working as a line cook at a restaurant there making a mere $7.00 an hour.  Although the cost of living there is far lower than here in Denver, that is still not much money.  Now throw in a pregnant fiance with a two year old and how can he afford to take care of a family of four.  I want to help in some way but they are so far away.  Financially I am really not able to send them any money and even if I could, would it be the right thing to do?  It would be helping them in the short term, but  also want him to learn to be self sufficient and to be able to take care of himself and his new family   I know there are other jobs there that pay more money but he says he's happy working where he is.  How do you know when to step in and help and when to step back and let them do things on their own? 

A friend passed away last night.  He had a brain aneurism Sunday morning while riding his motorcycle.  He crashed through a fench and was thrown from his bike.  He broke his ankle, several ribs, barbed wire cut his leg to the bone, punctured his lung, and broke his back.  They took him right into surgery for his back and he never woke up.  He did show some signs of improvement but yesterday his body started shutting down.  It was probably a blessing though because he most likely would have had brain damage and been paralyzed from the shoulders down. 

It's made me stop and think about how fragile life is.  I'm sure he was enjoying the beautiful day, riding his bike, spending time with friends and loved ones.  And in an instant everything changed.  We just saw him at a Labor Day BBQ last week.  Every time I saw him he had a smile on his face and was easy to laugh.  He was a happy person. 

I'm sure he will be missed by many.

I found out this morning that another friend had her baby yesterday. 

One life ends as another begins........

We recently moved into a house and Mitzi, my dog, has, for the first time, been able to spend time outside without being on a leash.  She absolutely loves it.  She spends almost all of her time outside and hates it when we call her in at night or when we leave.  I never realized how sad she was being cooped up in a small apartment all the time, only going out on a leash a few times a day to go potty.  But recently she blossomed.  She is so happy and has much more energy. 

Now, if only we could get her to stop digging in the dirt and stay out of the mud. :-)

As I grow older I realize more and more how important friendship is.  I never really thought about it when I was younger and so many time I made friends who disappeared over time and now I have no idea where they are.  Recent events in my life have almost ruined some dear friendships because of stupid rumors and heresay.  I have come to the decision that these friendships are more important that the hurt these rumors caused.  So I'm moving on, forgiving and forgetting, and learning from mistakes and growing as a person.